Big Country Blues Trailer

Big Country Blues Trailer
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Thursday, February 17, 2011

Slog Through the Shit to Soak up the Sun

Longest. Day. Ever. I was so tired today that the whole thing felt like a hazy dream. I think I was there. Somehow the past few nights I've been busy doing random things only to look at the clock and curse the night in disbelief because somehow it ended up 1:30 am. can imagine what the 5:45 am alarm has been like. Not pretty. A slew of curse words slips out of my mouth before I even pry my eyes open. And dragging myself out of my warm bed to go stand in the freezing cold, smiling and telling the public about a 25% online discount isn't any sort of appealing. Cherry on top - this morning I battled the L train and lost. Being on the last Brooklyn stop on the way into Manhattan, that sucker is packed by the time it gets to me. I was cutting it close on time so, like everyone else, when the crowded train arrived I squeezed myself into the doors. I sucked it in to allow them to close, only for them to rebound open again when the hood of my coat was sandwiched between them. The doors bounced open and closed a few times jerking my head back every time. The embarrassing dinging over the intercom was ringing in everyone's ears like my own personal soundtrack highlighting the stupidity. Finally, I was able to tuck my hood inside the car with the help of the giant man next to me. This is when I noticed that the ass holes in the middle of the train had so much room they could have performed a whole interpretive dance to that damn soundtrack of stupid. I mean really. MOVE IN, PEOPLE! I was very close to shouting this, but instead kept my trap shut and stared at the ceiling so as not to be mouth to mouth with the weird little woman whose face was nuzzling my collar bone. I switched trains at Union Square to another that was just as packed. By the time I arrived at Grand Central I was dripping sweat and trying desperately not to throw serious 'bows at anyone who got in my way. I was late to work, but looked like such a hot mess (literally) that my boss and coworkers just felt sorry for me. I ran into the office on the verge of a meltdown and immediately started stripping off layers of clothing (which would be weird under other circumstances...). After a few moments of near hyperventilation, I composed myself, picked up my flyers and took to the streets with my girls.

And thank God for those girls I work with. They've really been keeping me going. This week's been a tough one. Aside from the usual, I've actually been dealing with some serious shit. I don't want to cheapen the situation with mention of it on a usually fairly silly blog, but I feel like it's one of those things that will affect me for the rest of my life. And this is about my life. So here goes: I got a very unfortunate call Monday morning in which I found out about a friend's suicide. He was an amazing person that spent a summer here living in an open room in my best friend's apartment and became close with our group of friends. He's since moved back to Austin, but would come back to visit. The news, of course, took my group by utter surprise and I think we're all in a state of shock. I'm not really sure what to say except that if you need help, ask for it. He has so many friends and people that love him. I wonder what takes over a person that can make him forget that.

Needless to say, the days have been long and sad. I've had work and rehearsals and auditions. And while none of the daily bullshit really seems to matter this week, I'm going to tell you about it anyway. Because it is my life.

I had an audition for a Discovery Channel re-enactment show about living with mobsters. I went to the swank warehouse-turned-offices of the production company, grabbed the sides and took a seat to figure out a plan of action. No one came to get me, so I went and knocked on the door, entered, and proceeded to recount Linda's first meeting with her mobster boyfriend to a production assistant and her IPhone set on video camera. I did fine. It was truthful, nothing mindblowing. I chose not to do any major character choices - no super Italian/New York accent. Just honesty. The two people working in the office seemed to be more concerned with tracking down a vegan lunch than with auditions, which happens, but they asked me my availability and I was on my way. I sent my thank you note and now I wait.

Rehearsals are getting more and more intense. I think we're all starting to feel the pressure of tech week fast approaching. We're still trying to thread this abstract dance/theater piece together and it is tricky-tricky. Lord only knows if this is going to work on a stage, but I guess we'll see pretty soon...

I start rehearsals for show number two next week. I better pull it together.

Sorry to be a bit of a Debbie Downer this post, but it is what it is. I'm not feeling particularly witty or entertaining. Just tired. Sad. BUT, the weather is supposed to be beautiful tomorrow, so maybe my disposition will learn a little something from the sun. Tomorrow I plan on sleeping past 6am, working on lines outside while simultaneously doing laundry, going to a bootcamp to work off some of this week's BS, rehearsing with my scene partner ... and then I plan on getting drunk.

Yup. I see whiskey in my near future. It's the little things... shot glasses.


  1. Focus on the positive? Isn't that what people tell us? I'm sorry for your loss. And I'm sorry that the saying is true, when it rains, it pours.

    hopefully in your case it'll soon be pouring whiskey and chasers. Or maybe just the whiskey. Don't be a wuss Sarah.

    Also...I auditioned for that same Discovery Channel piece. And by warehouse you are correct. Was there a van parked on the landing outside of the offices when you went? Cause that made no sense to me. And i think they're just a bit scattered, I had the same experience. Maybe we'll work together. You could be part of my family, no?

  2. Hey Sarah,

    Sounds like you've had a lot to go through lately. It amazes me how you manage to find positive moments to focus on, and keep your sense of humour!

    Keep smiling! :)

    PS. I noticed you mentioned sending out a thank you note.. I'd love to pick your brain about those at some point.